Daca dragoste nu am nimic nu-mi foloseste

I don’t know what i want in life…
I can’t imagine where i’ll be in 10 years.
I also see life as an adventure…there are so many beautiful places to see, people to meet, things to learn, things to experience. World is a big place and we only have limited time to live… 50 more years at best…
All I know is I love you and eating an amazing ice cream in Timisoara is fun by my own, is better with some company…but it’s fucking extraordinary if I experience it with you.
Because I love you and I wanna live and share my adventures with you.

It’s like when you do a trick with a bottle and you nail it exactly when no one is watching…that sucks…

I wanna do life tricks and I want you to be there and see those so we can share the joy. I wanna be there for you when you do your tricks.

Because life is useless unless you share it with that special one.
And I swear to God you’re the most special human for me. We’re so damn special :))

Sooo
All I can hope is for you to be patient because there will be a time when you won’t ever need to go to sleep alone and I will be there to snuggle you through the bad dreams and hug you tight.

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Oh no…

Today i tried to take a selfie….and I felt so disgusted by the way I look….I am so sick…I am barely managing not going to the toilet and throw up everything I ate…

I promised myself I won’t eat….

But I also promised myself I would love myself and take care and eat and be healthy…

Oh God…im such a loser…and I wanna cry…cuz I wanna be good to myself…but I also hate myself so much….

And I feel so alone…and I feel so depressed these days but I can’t be…I have to be strong for my love…

What do I do? God….what do I do?…

I feel so sick…

Why am I even tired…I slept 11 hours two days in a row…and I ate so much…and took vitamins and all that shit…

Why am I so tired all the time….so sad….so fat…so stupid and confused….I wanna stop….but I can’t

What am I gonna do? What am I gonna do?

If you can’t return, go straight through your mistakes and forget them all

I don’t give a shit I don’t give a fuck
Like I always said hundreds of time every day, “Never mind me”
I can have a taste of failure and frustration and bow my head
We are still young and immature, don’t even worry about it
Moss surely grows on a stone that doesn’t roll
If you can’t return, go straight through your mistakes and forget them all
Never mind
It’s not easy but engrave it onto your chest
If you feel like you’re going to crash then accelerate more, you idiot
Come on
Never mind, never mind
No matter how thorny the road is, run
Never mind, never mind
There are lots of things in the world that you can’t help
You better
Never mind, never mind
If you feel like you’re going to crash then accelerate more, you idiot
Never mind, never mind
We’re too young and immature to give up, you idiot
Never mind

Homesick

I miss my baby the most…

Every night I fall asleep thinking how I wish I was in his arms…feeling his heartbeat…smelling his scent…feeling at peace. Feeling home

I’m homesick…because home is a boy with a pair of eyes that hold the entire universe in them…hands as soft as his heart…and his touch careful like I would broke under his fingertips

Home is hearing his heartbeat and feeling his breath fanning against my face while I struggle to sleep…hearing how he’s slowly falling asleep…and knowing that no matter how sleepy he’d be…he’d always look for my touch…always try to hug me in his sleep…always want me in his arms…even unconscious…

Home is in his arms…always feeling protected…always feeling safe…like nothing could touch me…nothing could hurt us…like the world could end at anytime…as long as I’m in his arms…nothing would matter

The most beautiful moment in life is when im with him…because that’s when I know I’m complete. That’s when I know I’m home.

At the edge of winter

At the edge of winter my heart trembles…

Snow it’s already melting in the whole country…and green patches of fresh grass can be seen from time to time…

Still…my heart is at the edge of winter…cold and trembling…

If I cry now the tears won’t freeze on my face. If I cry now the cold wind won’t make it impossible for me to breathe…if I cry now…

But I don’t cry. I don’t scream. I won’t.

We’re on the edge of winter…and all I have to do is to wait for the beautiful spring day to come…make me feel something more…make me feel warm…

Page 2 out of 365

E marti…sunt stresata…nu am invatat nimic…sapt viitoare deja am examene…

E 2018….si deja viata mea e un haos…deja sunt pe nicaieri…

New year new bulshit….cuz new me is kinda impossible to be fair…

Doamne…daca ma ajuti sa trec de sesiunea asta si sa.mi iau toate examenele…deci…jur ca ma si apuc de citit biblia…(glumesc…oricum am in plan asta…doar ca probabil la vara)

How am i gonna surviveeeeeee

Oh god help me…

In alta ordine de idei…am ajuns finally acasa…m.am spălat and shit…haha literally shit…cuz am avut o constipatie acolo…pff…

Mi.am facut un test de sarcina…cica suntem okay…da ma dispera maxim ca nu.mi vine ciclu atata timp…stiu ca is stresata…da totusi……
Anywaaaay…..2018 vibe is kinda gone…

And i can.t stress enough….

2018

2018 please be good…and please please let me stay in MM

  • Mai optimista
  • Invata sa zici nu
  • Ai mai multa rabdare
  • Apreciaza mai mult
  • Care less
  • Ai grija de tine
  • Nu.ti mai roade unghiile
  • Citeste 12 carti
  • Invata mai mult si din timp
  • Fotografiaza mai mult
  • Calatoreste
  • Arata.le celor din jur cat de mult tii la ei mai des
  • Fa cadouri
  • #loveyourself
  • Forgive yourself
  • Be more kind
  • Scrie mai des
  • Sceie in jurnal mai des
  • #photojurnalismeh project
  • Orfuckingnizeaza viata asta….tine o agenda…un calendar…jeez…you always are a mess but pretty please be an organized one this year